I often thought of this song and moment for although on the show, it was about her passing into a new "life" after death (or was it with the organ she didn't get in time?), I felt very similar in my own life.
Since I couldn't finish school and started a job training first, then work, I have been waiting and looking forward for my REAL life to begin. All my efforts and sacrifices, be they financial, time or other were subjugated to that goal.
But now that I will be 40 in 30 months, I am thinking what that "real" life should actually be like? What am I expecting? A life without work and a lot of money? Doesn't seem very fulfilling alone.
A life together? Seems far better, but where to find a person that's actually nice and reliable and worth putting our hopes into?
Maybe I have been living too much in the past AND future and forgot to live in the moment. That's the real life that's passing me by every day. And I often think how I can live it fuller, how I can seize the day and make the most of it. But is anything we do ever special or good enough? Or is it just about us living and not overthinking things too much?
